When I get home.............it's all gone

Some days it's harder than others to simply go to work.  I have been doing the same job with different variants for 14 years.  I like the job itself, but, loathe the way that I am forced to do it.  I feel micromanaged, unappreciated, looked over and hopeless.  I work for a fine company.  The morals within the department that I work for are horrendous.  I don't feel like I can trust a soul there.  I second and third guess everything.  Policies are not enforced and the inmates run the asylum.   I can work as hard as I possibly can and because I have morals I will never get ahead.  I am looked down upon bc I have them.  A few years ago I was told a manager said that I was an incredible employee but unfortunately I have a moral compass.

I have chronic pain.  It's a life sentence no matter what I do.  It can't be corrected.  It has it's moments that drive me to tears.  It has it's moments when I first wake up that I can almost forget it's there.  When that happens, I sit up in bed and close my eyes soaking it up.  Because all too soon it will be back and twice as ugly.  In addition to the chronic pain, this winter has been a total bitch.  I have been sick constantly and spring isn't looking much better.  I got up this morning with a resolve to have a wonderful week.  Shortly after, I realized that I am sick again.  I literally had a one day break between illnesses and zero without pain.

I'm about to amp myself up for my work day and try to push away the pain.  I looooooove this song.  I actually find the lyrics to be detestable but it is currently my go to song for dancing and elevating my mood.

Oh yeah
I'm in love with the other woman
My life was fine (Yes it was)
Till she blew my mind

Aw shucks, I'm just the average guy
I fooled around a little on the side
Never thought it would amount to much
Never met a girl who's love was so tough
Who'd a thought a one night stand
Could turn into such a hot romance
Mm, when she did it to me
I slipped and fell in love

I'm in love with the other woman
My life was fine (Yes it was)
Till she blew my mind

Now I know the rules of the games
You hit it once then break away clean
I should have never gone back, I know
But I had to have just a little bit more
My friends laugh but that's alright
I may be a fool but I know what I like
Now I hate to have to cheat
But it feels better when I sneak

I'm in love with the other woman
My life was fine (Yes it was)
Till she blew my mind
Somebody help me
I'm in love with the other woman
My life was fine (Yes it was)
Till she blew my mind

Oh this affair is unique
All my life I never met such a freak
She keeps me goin' strong for so long
When I get home it's all gone
Makes me wanna grab my guitar
And play with it all night long

I'm in love with the other woman
My life was fine (Yes it was)
Till she blew my mind

Tell me, has anybody else out there
Ever fell in love with the other woman
Oh with the other woman
Say I'm in love with the other woman
With the other woman, with the other woman
I'm in love, sure 'nough in love