I get jealous, but I'm too cool to admit it

There is one moment, in the first few seconds, when you look at a piece of art and know that you love it. It’s the moment when, if you’re an artist yourself, you look at it and feel a rush of uplifting inspiration… and total soul-crushing jealousy all at the same time. It’s when you walk away thinking, “Damn, I wish I thought of that.” ~ Danielle Krysa, The Jealous Curator {est. 2009} The Jealous Curator launched in February 2009, as a place for me to show artwork that “made me jealous”… in a bad, toxic, soul-crushing way. I was literally getting stopped in my tracks every time I saw work that I loved. It was awful. But now, over seven years later, that “jealousy” has turned magically, wonderfully, and thankfully into inspiration… but it’s too late to change my logo. In all seriousness, I’ve realized that jealousy can actually be turned completely on it’s head, and used as fuel to get back into the studio. It can only stop you if you let it. That’s when the magic transformation from jealousy to inspiration starts to happen… thank goodness. I feel Danielle completely and I am jealous of her. It's like she perfectly articulates what I try to explain to others without even trying. I have been depressed for what feels like years now. In all honesty, I probably have been and I'm not adding drama, here. But, when depressed, it's impossible for me to take care of myself emotionally, financially and creatively. I have been wanting to drag out the water color pencils and oil pastels for days. Have I? No, bc I am self punishing for not taking care of other things that need doing. Like perhaps, financially taking care of myself. I need something big to come inand blow up my current cycle of self destruction If you have any idea's, sole reader, please lemme know.................. Chromeo, kicking it old school since 1996, LOVE THEM!!!!