Hush, hush, keep it down now, voices carry............

My recent thoughts have directed me here. I tend to have a very over the top personality. As my dad always said, my voice, "carries". Im an extreme chick, I get that. You either love me or you hate me. I also get that. But, sometimes I fear the packaging is misleading and that when all is said and done I am not enough. That the build up leads you to expect something, more, that I am not or am not capable of.. For example, I always seem to end up with alocholic sex addicts. What gives on that??? I sometimes wonder if I am too much in other ways as well........for example I think I may be an overwhelming kisser. Generally when you see a couple kiss and one partner sighs or moans it's generally the girl. In my case, it's always the guy not me. I am I just one giant tongue monster or do other chicks just phone it in? WTF, man....................