Repo man

somtimes the strangest things provoke a change.  In this case it was a Fb positive affirmation meme.  I can't stand that shit normally but I guess since I was so very angry last Friday it spoke to me and resonated.  So, if ur reading this as I suspect that u may be.  Here we go........

By the by for all reading this including myself. When I'm blogging at my pc, it is all I can do to sit there patiently and type.  I'm not good with things I feel see obligatory or only doing one thing at a time.  I blame the adhd bc I find myself getting frustrated when I can't complete at least two things while doing another.  This week my spelling may have suffered but my brain is happy bc I have learned the joy of blogging in the bathtub.  I hate typing on this tiny keyboard but I live for my baths and this is the perfect storm.

So, back to YOU if ur reading this. And if ur not it doesn't matter.  Consider this to be my mission statement regarding YOU.   Somewhere ur onetime super hero worship must have come to mean more to me than it should.  I started caring more than I should have.  I handed over without fore thought the power to hurt and anger me.  Since then that is all that u have done.  I know ur upbringing and I am certain that u reveled in the power to control and manipulate someone u had watched in action ur entire life.  So, as of last week I have revoked this "gift" I gave u.  I just don't fucking care anymore.  U finally managed to turn me against u in ur war against urself bc u know it really wasn't about me, right?   a few words of advice.  Instead of bottling up ur feelings til ur ready to explode try communicating.  I know u don't know what that looks like so u may have to wing it.  Fake it til u make it....  If u hurt someone, apologize and at least attempt to mean it.  I know my sociopath friend this will be rough but u need to try lest u end up like ur dad.  Stop being such a dick and turning ur own self loathing onto others. I wish u the best from as far away as I can possibly get.  Good luck,  you're going to need it.   Oh and to play ur geme and turn ur words against u in kind.  GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!